reality show.

Lately, i've been wondering so much.
wondering bout myself.
my hearts.
my mind.
my little tiny pupil.

they say, ' what happen to you, Tomtom? '
i say, ' dunno.'

she say, ' does everyone change?'
i say, ' yes.'

he say, ' what are you now'
i say, ' A quarter. 1/4=Demon. 2/4= Angel. 3/4= Halo. 4/4=HUMAN. '

There's been quite a lot thing did happen to me since last two weeks. LOVE, DRAMA, FRIENDSHIP, AND LIFE..its happen in once. silly huh..people said i am fake. fake? and how bout u guys? can i say u guys are saints? angel? . damn it. we all are hypocrites! admit it. I am not fake. I aint betrayer. I just dont know where should I started 1st. the plot quite complicated. I lie for reason. The reason u guys cant accept. but just blaming n shitting on me. im a murderer. But well, i did know one person or maybe two person or maybe three or maybe more..they all poker face..twisting the fact and myth. myth was in front of me. fact? behind me. but still i did the same. not often. but reasonable. stop hypocrites ourselves. I'm just doing the same thing like u did guys, it just u started it first. dont get it. sooner or later u will figure it out. :)

I really dunno what happen to me. all i can say. i made a mistakes. i got nowhere to run and hide. life must go on. face it. n im SORRY. im just a human who made mistakes. everyday. every time. everywhere.

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PAINKILLER.

Ari ni aku tak gi class Puan Hanan. bukan sebab aku malas. (mmg pun lar.:p) just aku mengantok and dalam sedeyh2.
kunun lar. hahaha lgipun kelas sejam ja kot. better aku tido pe!

haha so aku just tido..till 4pm. hesh..tak macam posa pun.
aku online sebentar..
ramai bagi response dgn status or post or blog aku.
thnx.
aku slalu cam ni. ada probs..kompom tido..cuz aku tak suka layan probs. better tido..mimpi besh2..

to all people who concern bout me..thnx a lot. i love u guys.

but i should think wisely..of cos my fruithart hav fucking own reason for wrote such thing aite.?
be positive dear Tomtom. lol.
after all i heard a lot of story about u my dear...i just dont believe it..all i need is explaination from u though..

susah nya chenta.. .

.pergh.cukup2 lar jiwank2 aku nie.
geli sial. hahha p
pe lar.
watever happen..what ever people said...
i still love u babe. love you. lov you. n u?
call me and say it out loud.

hope: wish u were here forever by my side.

-- XXX: eh!ni madu i kan?!
-- TOM: erk? ok2..*sigh
(behind the scene)

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Pain.

sorry guys lama tak update. bz sket n malas byk. LOL.

nah..skg ni aku

mmg nak tulis gak.
aku baca blog dia, n i found it was a pain for me to continue to read it.
I wonder it is based on true story or just a fairy tales..I hope...?
I'm trying to think positive. but after all, still, pain.double pain.triple pain.
ur admirers. loves. dramas.n bla bla bla bla.
babe, am I ur fruithart? When u reply : 'yes. i love you'
I doubt it.
What do u expect of my feeling after read ur super-story?
Yes, I'm hurt n yet my heart broken. But what do u care about it, aite?
one word: selfish.
I aint smokin howt to you. I know.
I wanna cry, but my tears wont come out. waste huh.

Macy Gray said:
I wanna say goodbye but I choke.
though I try to hide it, its clear.
my world crumbles when u are not near.
I may seem alright and smile when u were here.
but my smile it just a front. just a front.
I keep my cool, but I'm a fiendin'.

I love you fruithart. I mean it. really. cross my heart.
but pls, makes me feel urs too.
I need ur touch.
ur kisses and such.
show me how deep is ur love,.
dats all.
or mybe I should pretend like i dont know n dont care at all. Yes, I can do it. physically.
let me ask my heart, dear heart, will u?
so-so.

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HOLE-iN-DaY

kePOYOan TERSERLAH disitu.hohoho~

Hurm..aku da start cuti sem. but aku tak tau nak wat pa cuti2 nie.selain keja kat CC tu. ye ar. member lepak2 aku da pun balik kampung n sowang lagi tenga sentap kerna cakap aku ni kawan yg plastik? ntah lar. Takde maknanya aku nak plastik if rajin sangat berlepak dengan beliau. Aku da explain tapi tak nak dengar. so biar lar. lagipun kuat berjalan kang berjangkit penyakit BABI tu. choi! palis-palis bah!

"Friends come n go.." That's what I thought.Right?

Study lar sangat aku kat library. LMAO

B4 my hole-in-day, opkos lar aku ada exam..hurm..ari exam tu mmg aku super-sleepy. Mana tak, malam tu pi melepak, then balik kol 7 pagi, pastu nak p Finance tuk amik slip exam pastu pi Library study..pergh..
14:30 PM : baru lar aku sedar exam da start n aku masi lagi berlari-lari anak pi Dewan..huhu..ramai da org masok n siap dapat kertas..aku duduk je lar tempat kat blakang..
EXAM START FROM NOW. aku tekun membaca.adui..maw terkeluar biji mata aku melihat artikel yg maha panjang tu!
baca..baca...baca...huh..huh..huh..
Pergh! tercungap-cungap aku membaca seperti sedang bermarathon kunun.
Sampai lar ke artikel terahkir..(ada 5 artikel wo!) aku baca lagi..
baca...ZzZzZzZZzZzzZ..~
AKU TETIDO LAR PLAK!! PUNYA LAR ENAK SKALI!
aku terlelap tuk 15 minit kut. ntah. nasib bek air liur basi tak meleleh kat kertass aku.
hohoho.
17:40 PM. END.
pergh..tetibe aku dapat mcet dari awek aku, Ella Urniza.
" Lambat kuar? erm banyak idea lar tu nak tulis essay"
" Hotak ko. aku tetido kut! "
tak kesah lar. janji aku da abis exam. skg nie aku cuti 3 minggu lebiyh. Next sem subjects amat susah ya.
paling susah part DUIT! DUITTTT!!!
watever lar. JUST DO IT. LOL.
SLAMAT BERCUTI MY FRENKS.

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LEPAK ITU KERJA? |PART II|

This week still GIGIH ya pi melepak n jalan2. jenk2. but mybe this week..more drama yg berlaku kat dalam episode nie..

Friday, 17th July 09

Ari ni aku lambat nak gi KL atas urusan tertentu..time nak escalator, ada minah ni tengah syok tengok aku since dari KTM agi, so, bcuz im so damn polite, aku tegor lar nak pi mana. but she's look damn hot!
hahah. Time tggu LRT, The Lenka song's woke me up.

" Double Heyyy u olllss! Nak follow I tak pi Shout Awards, today at 5 PM."
reply : " NAK2!!"
It's the JB, Azahar text me. Shout Awards!? yay!!
op kos lar nak pi! but keja tak siap agi! skg da kol 3.30pm! argh! cepat2!!

Momol,Musx,ToMToM,Azha,Dauc..MMG BESH SHOUT!!

Nasib lar sempat ya aku bersiap..So yang pegi just aku, Azha, MomoL, Musx & Dauc. Pergh! bapak berasap bontot aku dalam kreta kerna jammed gilak babi,
..Ke Kiri pihak red devil sebok pi stadium tuk MU. Ke Kanan pihak artisan n peminat sebok ke Shout Awards! yay!!! ok, dari kol 6 akhirnya sampai lar juga kol 8.30 PM.
Wowowo.dapat tiket free dari Fendhi, kitrg kat area standing ya! wowoow lagi! Opening perfomance mmg gempak shial!! argh! POP SHUVIT wit SHIZUKA! pergh! so damn hot
! I like the perfomance by ONE BUCK SHORT, NIKKI & JAC. Hebat gak Jac ni kalah kan CT tuk powerful vokal! Congrats babe!
Sean Kingston agak mengecewakan aku ya, lagu jo sodap, tapi nak pekak aku dengar dia nyanyi! sumbang shial! snap! Thnx GOD lagu 911 dier save everything..aku menari tak igt dunia mahupun camera.. hauhua. Dalam besh2 n enjoy2..a
Da gak spoiler drama berlaku..time aku tnga lepak dgn Azha kat luar, terserempak segerombolan Alien n the geng yg penah menuduh aku bukan2 n tak puas hati dgn aku. Masa tu aku tnye pe probs dier, n dia just gitau bla bla bla bla..ntah aku just gitau yg dorang kaple pun da nak kemak ya! Aku dgn suara jantan da start nak melenting and tangan da ready menumbuk..tapi si Azha ni lar yg spoil juga mghalang reaksi aku..dorg blah dgn muka si Alien terkejut cam kena berak. balik pi SPACESHIP dorank ar tu. mampos lar!
Balik tu aku tak follow dorank, cuz aku da janji nak gi Clubb dgn Qai, Hekal, Syah n teman baru Epul. Hurm..aku kat Clubb melihat kurank feel tuk menari..sebab?
Aku dapat cerita bahawasanya chenta ku men kayu 3-9. ntah lar..aku sakit hati..mmg sakit hati..aku menari kurang vitamin n protein..tak bleh feel. Thnx to Mukhlis for cheer me up. Balik tu, kitorg twos gi MCD. melepak jup..hoho. aku semakin hyperactive.
Guys, if nampak aku hyperactive means aku mmg ada something wronk lar tu..probs bertambah..sakit ati..but, aku tak show off dgn member2 aku. I try to react normal n happy go lucky and mencarut like always..sampai Epul pun wonder aku ni org yang camne..
well Epul, what u see is not always what u get. BESHFRENK!!

Saturday, 18th July 09

Aku bangun kol 7pm. hohoho. mmg mengantok! semalam balik kol 9 pagi ya. gigih disitu!!
hurm..yang penting aku rasa ok da..penat dgn drama telenovela..hurm. so today! pe lagi aku bwat?!
yay! Qai ajak gi tengok muvie, Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince! pergh! aku bukan lar peminat setia Harry Potter ni.tapi memandangkan aku da tengok dari mula sampai lar yg akhir..kena lar tengok lagi..n aku mmg plan tak nak kuar..sebab malas and takde duit... tu je. tapi Epul ugut aku tak nak bgi gelank kesayangan aku and Qai nak blanje..thnx!! cit! nak tak nak..kena gak pi..n most hurt n sedeyh time aku kehilangan gelank aku yg Xera bagi! argh!!! Kemak! sakit ati aku sial! da lar aku syg giler babi!! hurm!
Ok..citer Harry potter? Sumpah tak besh! 3 jam aku kat ctu, 3 jam lar aku menguap, tetido! bodow sgt Dumbledore mati dgn Akrakadabra!? bengong ar!
Pas tengok muvie, kitorg pi Damai, lepak n shisha-ing. yay! I like! hohoh! and play Truth or Dare...hohuhu. aku tak nak amik Dare..kang memalukan diri sindri ya..ceyh..
Ye lar puas menghayati zaman kanak-kanak dulu...Dashin-kuro..Sailormoon..Power Rangers..Patung Kertas yg tukar baju2 tu..kitorg gerak pi Pelita kat seksyen 9..huh..borak sampai berbuih pun tak nak gerak2 lagi sampai kol 8 pagi ya! gilak! huhu.

Sunday, 19th July 09

Hurm! ari ni aku tak tido! cuz aku kena gi keje syift pagi! argh! tetido aku time keje sampai customer yang kejut kan..but nasib bek beshfrenk Hekal datang bawa bfast tuk aku! yay! kenyank! hohoho. lol..
Hurm... pe lar nak jadi..aku keje sampai kol 5 petang..then aku balik tido..tu pun kejap, till ada Qai call nak ajak lepak! wargh! penat shial..nak tak nak..pi je lar..ye ar sok Qai balik kolej dier da..tak kesah ar..
.kitorg pi melepak kat Pak Li till gi Andalus..
Ben plak asyik2 call..sangap nak jmpe sbab ada hal nak cakap.. kol 5am..aku, Syah , Hekal otw balik Shah Alam..dan2 tenga borak dgn Syah, Hekal tido, kat area PKNS tu..ada kete MyV tenga korner ntah langgar pe sampai terbalik krete tu!! Terkejut wo! Syah direct call aku pi tolong mangsa yg tersekat2! ditumbuk2 nya cermin itu,,tak pecah2! (pecah lar sket ma..) Hekal yang terbangun dari mimpi on the way pi Kayangan pun tergendala lalu pantas pi menendang pintu.,..agak klaka ya disitu.hahah.
Last, pecah gak dgn BATU!! ceyh! abg tu selamat..syukur..aku da nampak dia kuar, twos jauh diri, cuz takot meletop kreta dgn minyak tumpah itu...then aku tanye abg tu pe berlaku? dia cakap dia tak tau..then dia pi dalam krete tu panggil2 nama member dia or ntah sape suwo kuar...aku heran...mmg heran..mana da lgi kat dalam..aku tnye dia sape lagi ada..dia syok2 mencari 'member' dier.nak cakap ting tong..bukan..masi waras..aku n Hekal da syak bukan2 dah..takkan nmpak hantu twos accident? n dia sebok cari hantu tu agi? kalo ye pun kompom 'hantu' tu da terbang gi depan kreta akibat drift terlampau tu? ntah.aku tak nak jadi bukti keadaan.
kitorg twos blah cari Ben.kat KFc je..hurm..rupanya2 Ben just nak tnye bende yg aku anggap tak penting..sebab da tau jawapan. then nak mnyusah kan aku lagi! aku mmg sakit ati! nak2 je aku lempanK! dah lar pagi tu aku kna gi kolej tuk exam petang nnti..study agi..bodoh ar. AKU MMG SAKIT ATI. SAKIT ATI SGT2 dgn BENDA PENTING DIA TU N CRITA yg DIA NAK JUAL TTG AKU! KEMAK DOWH!

P/S : Aku paling pantang org nak cakap2 ttg aku, fitnah pukimak, and yg terbaru, cop aku ARTIS MYSPACE ya! shial je..pujian? ntah..aku tak suka..aku manusia je. kawan korank.kawan sesape je.

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LEPAK ITU KERJA? | PART I |

Lately, rajin otot2 kaki aku tuk bergerak sana sini situ. Ntah, member ajak kuar, aku just said 'YES. ok je'. Ni lar pengaruh citer 'YES MAN'. YES 4 EVERYTHING MA!

THURSDAY 09th JULY.

LEPAK-SEMAK : ASIA CLUB
LEPAK-KEPAK : HaiKal, SYah, RUby n AWe.
LEPAK-SEPAK : 12:00 AM - 06:00 AM
LEPAK-CAMPAK : SNUKER, BORAK, MEREMPAT, MC D.

Ni pas aku bis keje, dorank ya semangat jantan datang pi CC aku tuk invite aku skali pi xtvt KUTU MALAM. Ye ar. aku keja dari petank tu then direct pi melepak sampai pagi. hurm..but MOOD : ENJOY!
n

FRIDAY 10th JULY.

LEPAK-SEMAK : SUNWAY PYRAMID,KOPIBIN SUBANG, PAK LI, DOWNTOWN, TASIK, MC D.
LEPAK-KEPAK : Fer, Azha, NIeda, Fendi, Shah, PUk, DD, MoMOL, Musz, Farid, Dauc.
LEPAK-SEPAK : 14:00 PM - 06:00 AM
LEPAK-CAMPAK: GADOh2-MAKAN2-CAMWHORE-BORAK SAMPAI BERBUIH.

pergh! da lar penat tak cukup tido. Petang kol 5 dorg ajak pi Sunway Pyramid jalan2 n men Dance-Dance tu. pijak2 sampai hancur tapak kaki. KoL 8 lepak dgn my SiS pi bli barank jup, kol 10 camtu, Fendhi datang amik umah ajak kuar lepak cuz ada gathering bebudak JB. (JB ke aku? ntah lar.:)) dari Sunway kembali ke tanah asal Shah Alam pi PAK LI. lepak2 n borak2 sal nak vacation pi Langkawi nnti. After that, plan ramai pi DOWNTOWN..fuh..besh..nasib lar teda duit..tak bleh nak bli blahh...huhuhu..jeles2! hauhauh. then lepak kat tasik bwat xtvt luar biasa n tak abis tu still on nak pi MCD mamam. huhahuha disitu dgn Fer, Azha, Fendhi n Azha sampai lar kol 6. pergh!!! aku balik2 ja twos tido.

Di grab dari page Azha.

Saturday, 11th JULY

LEPAK-SEMAK : KOPIBEAN SUBANG PARADE, KOPITIAM WAK DOL, & ASIA CAFE
LEPAK-KEPAK : MY SIS, QAI, HATTA.
LEPAK-SEPAK : 14:00PM - 06:00 AM
LEPAK-CAMPAK : Freelance thang, webcam, LEPAK, BORAK.

Pergh!! semata-mata aku malas nak bwat kemas bilik kakak aku, aku blah awal dari umah tu pi lepak kat Subang KOPIBEAN. huhu. jahat aku. jenk2 jenkkk..so kat ctu aku bwat keja aku, baca novel, n chatting. Time tu lar Qai ajak lepak skali malam nnti, n my sis plak ajak pi Shah Alam jumpa member dia, Kak Shek atas urusan bisnes PEARL dorank. Then kol 12 malam balik umah my Sis, cuz Qai ajak kuar lepak..lepak2 sampai pengsan..n ada member dia datang tetibe yg aku langsung lar aku tak kenal..taw2 tu lar Hatta Dolmat. LOL. kitorg lepak sampai kol 6 pagi. mmg mata aku da layu.

Azahar. Member aku dari aku budak hingusan.

Sunday, 12 JULY

LEPAK-SEMAK : Air Terjun Sungai Gabai & Midvalley
LEPAK-KEPAK : Fer, Nieda, Fendhi, Azha
LEPAK-SEPAK : 10:00AM - 19:00PM
LEPAK-CAMPAK : MANDI MANDA & JALAN2.

argh! Sumpa mata aku tak cukup tido! But today plan pi air terjun! yay! tapi aku tak bwa baju tuk mandi! huhu! KEMPUNAN~ Pi situ mmg jauh gak! Exited shial! hehe.1st time ma pi tempat nie..mak aih! da lah ramai orang time ni! cit! ramai nak mampos. dan2 nak pi tempat plg tggi, sanggup nek tangga yg super-tinggi nak mampos! aku pun bengong jap, rilex je unkel2 yg tua tu nek, aku muda lagi comel dah sah2 tercungap2! pergh! but sampai situ puas hati lar beb! mmg besh, rilex, awek..cuci mata.hohoho!! tapi malang aku tak bwa pakaian..huhu. da puas sampai kol 3 ptg, kitorg bergerak p Mid plak..huhu..gi melawat member JB yg lain..pergh! aku da lah keja kol 7 ptg. snap..mmg tak larat. Tapi apakan daya. aku redha je lar. aku tak follow dorank pi dinner aku twos gi keja sampai lar kol 1 pagi..hurmm,..
penat n exhausted sgt woo..balik je aku tidooo...baru ku dapat rasa kebaikan n nikmat tido...

well.i think..this is a life as SOCIALISTA? (gelaran Haikal bagi.)
tak kesah la. as long as aku happy dgn teman2,,aku tak kesah! but. study still come first.
lepak2 not priority at all.
ye ar. lepak tu kerja kan?

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RONA

9-July-09 2:00 AM

Aku baru balik dari keja kat cybercafe..mmg penat nak mampos lar. dan2 skg nie ramai da student masok sem baru..so ramai lar berkunjung..so aku balik ja rumah, aku tros cuci muka basok kaki n bros gigi..
aku nak on9, tapi macam da muak plak, borink Angelina ku menatap wajah ku yg tak tau malu itu.
So aku decide baca novel yg aku semangat beli dahulu: Mantera Hitam..sebuah novel fiksten fantasi lar kunun..citer mmg besh..but part tak bleh blah kunun jin tu sgt lar berteknology tinggi sampai terlebih bertamadun dari manusia. tapi aku layan ja lar. Da sampai klimaks, so plot harus diterus kan sampai lar aku tak sedar aku bukan tenga membaca but dibuai mimpi. LOL.
Mimpi pe ntah lar aku time tu, igt je tenga mimpi drive kreta n hampir eksiden. woohoho.
...............
aku tak tutup lampu cuz terlelap.Tak lama gitu, aku terasa cam ada something kat blah kanan muka aku..cam rasa bulu2 kat tepi pipi, first aku igt mesti roomate aku nye keje nak bwat lawak seposen. but aku rasa cam pelik, asal tetibe bulu roma aku meremank n sejok semacam?
aku buka mata slowly..muka hitam legam, hidung mancung, berbulu! aku baru prasan ada makhluk tenga mencangkung kat blakang kepla aku! HA!! syukur aku masi kuat semangat, x pengsan mahupun histeria. aku cuba nak lari, but badan kaku n tak dapat nak gerak. Masa tu lar aku start baca surah pe yg patot n zikir tak henti..mahkluk hitam tu hilank n now kat area meja aku..tapi aku tak pduli dah, hampir seploh minit aku struggle tuk gerak, mmg payah, even b4

NI TIME KAT UNISEL. AKU PUN TAK TAU BENDE NI PE. TRY CONTRAST KAN AR.

this aku penah kena "benda" ni tapi tak lar susah sgt nak "lepas". At last, aku dapat gerak gak, then cepat2 aku angkut bantal aku(masi sempat plak) then kuar dari bilik pi ruang tamu tido dgn member2 aku skali

member aku terkejut gak tetibe aku pi menyempit kat teman dorang then aku crite ar. Sume diam..bulu roma start naik. Then 2 jam lar gak kitorg tak tido. Aku diam..tak dapat tido. Nak terlelap pun trauma 5 minit.
tapi pas suboh aku tetido sampai lar asar.

hurmm..ntah lar. aku pikir2. bende tu just mainan tido ke or something halunsasi. biar lar. lgpun ni bukan first time happen to myself.

P/s : aku gitau my mom sal bende ni..first2 mmg lar carink dgn anak dier. but tak bleh blah my mom gelak!!! cit! Then my sis call pun gelak2! shial! nah..family aku mmg camni..first2 je seyes. last2 gelak2. mana tak tumpah kuah if tak pi nasi?

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This is not BEDTIME STORY

[TAKE 5~]

ToMTom was born on 1st of April in Kota Kinabalu,Sabah. He is the youngest and the only male in his family. Now currently study and stay in Shah Alam. Graphic Designer wannabe. He is addict to photography, music, party, art, social life, hibernating, chocolates and etc. He just an ordinary boy but easy-going and really naughty person. Really hate frogs and please to hypocrites, move your ass away. This is real me..my life, and my story. Let the drama begin...

[WELCOME TO MY WONDERLAND][\(^o')/]

reality show.

PAINKILLER.

Pain.

HOLE-iN-DaY

LEPAK ITU KERJA? |PART II|

LEPAK ITU KERJA? | PART I |

RONA

This is not BEDTIME STORY

[TAKE 5~]

HitT Me Here

WELCOME

BUZZ BUZZ BUZZ!!!

MuXiCaHoLiC

20th JULY 09

[MY FRIENDS HEROES]

[MY JURNALICIOUS]

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